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Life is an intoxication, when you breathe it right.
Every minute spent is right no matter what, where, with whom
Nothing goes wasted, no...not ever!
I'm a girl who's dreaming high and more
I've seen this world before, but never felt it so true earliar
These days, oh! the days, they have hit the right spot
memories, they create a mark
maybe someday when am old enough or less
I will boast of them to my off springs
They can strike my words or mark them
But i tell you what that they can inspire
I might not have created a history but who cares
I have still managed to hit the nail on the wall
These days, oh! I tell you, they're memorable
Not once but yeah, in a series
Life is meant to be lived
just breathe it right
...and you know just how it feels!!!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
But the truth is.
Well...honestly, I think you're still young and waiting to explore the various probabilities of life. And it is unfair to expect you to be like someone older than your age. Your life at this point permits you to make mistakes, fall and then rise again. Infact, this is what you are meant to be doing- Exploring Life!
Maybe my presence in your life at the moment is making one of your "whims" come true and thereby in a way helping you explore another new page in your life. That is fine by me. As a matter of fact I like for a fact that I have had an opportunity to make that slight bit of a difference to your life. But dear freind, you should also know that I hold no promises towards you, as I am able to give you all what I can and there is nothing more I can do for you other than this.
Maybe you might even call me heartless or curse me for this kind of my reciprocation towards your "warmth" and "genuinity". But by giving you all what I am able to, by doing what I can, is my only and ultimate way of asking you to forgive me. For I reallly hope, wish and pray that you get something more bigger and better than me in exchange at some point of time in your life.
As per me, I dont think you really deserve me. My heart knows that. And someday if hearts really ever talk and understand eachother, then you will know what I truly meant and intended for you. You know that though I will not be next to you, but I will always keep loving you just as much. This my friend is the truth.
Yes, this is all what I can do at my best. And yet, I have disappointed you in all my doings. Will I ever rise in front of you ever again? That is my question. I hope I do. I would have never let you go out of my life if only...I could!
Bottomline is- You will always remain close to my soul. May you soar high. Always!
Maybe my presence in your life at the moment is making one of your "whims" come true and thereby in a way helping you explore another new page in your life. That is fine by me. As a matter of fact I like for a fact that I have had an opportunity to make that slight bit of a difference to your life. But dear freind, you should also know that I hold no promises towards you, as I am able to give you all what I can and there is nothing more I can do for you other than this.
Maybe you might even call me heartless or curse me for this kind of my reciprocation towards your "warmth" and "genuinity". But by giving you all what I am able to, by doing what I can, is my only and ultimate way of asking you to forgive me. For I reallly hope, wish and pray that you get something more bigger and better than me in exchange at some point of time in your life.
As per me, I dont think you really deserve me. My heart knows that. And someday if hearts really ever talk and understand eachother, then you will know what I truly meant and intended for you. You know that though I will not be next to you, but I will always keep loving you just as much. This my friend is the truth.
Yes, this is all what I can do at my best. And yet, I have disappointed you in all my doings. Will I ever rise in front of you ever again? That is my question. I hope I do. I would have never let you go out of my life if only...I could!
Bottomline is- You will always remain close to my soul. May you soar high. Always!
Saturday, January 3, 2009
This day of my life...
The Sun that shimmers over me,
Through days and nights,
His beaming rays touch my skin,
Cajole my senses,
Awaken me,
through the times we spend together.
The fondness of our memories will only remain.
He is to me nothing but a source of connection,
the point where only love evokes.
A perfect synergism. An eclectic mix of emotions.
Oh! Life giver what have you led me into?
Need you not show mercy on me!
Monday, December 8, 2008
What is 9th of December??
Happy Birthday to me!!!
I dont have both my best friends in town this year! But heck i dont really see that as a reason to not celebrate 26 years of my existence naaah SURVIVAL on this planet!! LOL. Yes, am turning another year older today, i already have :P
I plan to grow old gracefully. I know there is so much more to do for me.
But for now here is what i would like to do as an immediate plan-
1. Buy that beautiful Monte Carlo sweater as a gift for myself !!!
2. Indulge in a real LAVISH lunch ...yuuum!!
3. Catch upon my memories in the past and cherish this life despite all the messy situations!!
4. Count my blessings of course (well yeah i do belive in God and I'm god fearing)
5. Write a checklist of things i love doing and things that i wanna do from here on. (Wow its not going to be easy but it should be real fun)
Well and this is for all my people who are close to me, its my promise to stay close to your hearts. I would love you and keep you close to my heart as much as you would. This may sound strange but thanks mum, thanks dad for bringing me into this big bad world and showing me things that I would wanna learn and grow from!!
Happy Birthday to me once again :)) !!!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
What times are we living in??
8 days have passed since the aftermath.
This time however things are not back to normal. The recent Mumbai terrorist attacks also known as the 9/11 of India has shaken not just most of us but all of us!!
The rubble still remains and the threat is not completely fixed as yet. People in Mumbai are still seen running helter skelter to recover from their state of disaster. Several victims have been hospitalised and the condition is just getting worse. Nothing which is of public can be trusted safe anymore- the crowded street corners, the public parks, the local trains, the airports just about nothing at all.
All this is nothing but a gruseome reality. What appeared to be a little more than a dazzling palace is now brought down to ruins. The Taj that once stood proudly is now badly battered and gutted!
The youth are demanding answers to their questions. Rhetoric slogans have been raised, revolutionising debates have been talked on the T.V and this is just the begining. We all know lighting candles and paying condolences is not going to help us anymore. We want something that is promising. A reforming Police and defense system. A dynamic and no nonsense political system and much more.
Indian politicians are corrupt and just a bunch of pot-bellied selfish nincompoops who want to fill their bank accounts. None of these series of blasts affects them. What a disgrace! What a curse!
India is going through a lot. She's hurt and her pride is gone down to the gutters. What a wreched bunch of people is she being looked after (the politicians). It is truly disappointing. I don't feel proud to be an Indian. I probably may never!!
This time however things are not back to normal. The recent Mumbai terrorist attacks also known as the 9/11 of India has shaken not just most of us but all of us!!
The rubble still remains and the threat is not completely fixed as yet. People in Mumbai are still seen running helter skelter to recover from their state of disaster. Several victims have been hospitalised and the condition is just getting worse. Nothing which is of public can be trusted safe anymore- the crowded street corners, the public parks, the local trains, the airports just about nothing at all.
All this is nothing but a gruseome reality. What appeared to be a little more than a dazzling palace is now brought down to ruins. The Taj that once stood proudly is now badly battered and gutted!
The youth are demanding answers to their questions. Rhetoric slogans have been raised, revolutionising debates have been talked on the T.V and this is just the begining. We all know lighting candles and paying condolences is not going to help us anymore. We want something that is promising. A reforming Police and defense system. A dynamic and no nonsense political system and much more.
Indian politicians are corrupt and just a bunch of pot-bellied selfish nincompoops who want to fill their bank accounts. None of these series of blasts affects them. What a disgrace! What a curse!
India is going through a lot. She's hurt and her pride is gone down to the gutters. What a wreched bunch of people is she being looked after (the politicians). It is truly disappointing. I don't feel proud to be an Indian. I probably may never!!
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Nailed!
After putting in a lot of thoughts together, I have finally decided to do my part - to clear off the unneccesary clutter from my life! A simple practice such as alt+shift+delete has so much meaning to our non-computer living side of life.
I know there is so much to take care of at this point of my phase in life. And suddenly there is so much more to do!
To begin with, I came up with a list of all the things that I do and the sametime not proud of it. These things not only complicate my life but also get me massively disorganised. And so the list reads as follows:
1. Messy room- which not only means cluttered with clothes ranging from all sizes but also ending up clueless about what is kept where.
2. waking up late in the mornings.
3. Irregular workouts.
4. External distractions in the mind at workplace. Not being able to concentrate and give my full self at work. This has definitly affected me during my feedback with my manager.
5. Not being update with current affairs and business affairs. This is gonna make me a bad, dull and boring conversationalist someday!
6. Procrastination of important tasks/chores. I bet you all I can score the highest when it comes to procrastinating things.
7. Re-structuring/arranging my wardrobe. I'm terrible at this one especially when the whole room's messy. The terrible thing is when I'm sitting in front of my cupboard half awake at mornings and hopelessly pre-occupied with one side of my mind while the other side is trying to decide what clothes to wear for work. Sometimes I don't even realise that i spend 30 mins just trying to decide and struggle my way to see what matches with what.
8.Not being able to give time for myself on weekends.
9. Messy workstation. Messy Inbox. Totally messed up computer system with too many unnecessary folders and files.
10. Terrible time management skills.
Ok. Having realised the above things and plus a 25 minute discussion with my manager about my average performance at workplace, I felt worse than a walked-over banana skin.
Having experienced a mindful of terrible mixed emotions and a state of withdrawal ( ok i sound like a schezophrenic here but I'm not exxagerating), I decided that I can always choose to reverse things out for better or for good. I realised I had to save my job if I like the work that I'm doing and the kind of money my company is paying me. So I decided to come up with an action plan (a real strict one) and execute it. After all they say we should never despise the small beginings (in my case teeny-weeny beginings).
Action Plan # 1-
Manage time properly by carefully measuring the daylong activties at office. Each task should be timed so that I can try my best to finish them off in the given time period. Prepare a checklist of activities in a personal notebook. After completeing each task check it or strike it (with each strike comes a sense of elevation topped with exhileration). Keep the workstation tidy. No cluttered papers whatsover. Avoid personal talks with freinds who come online. Discipline yourself to strictly stop using orkut/facebook/gtalk/yahoo messenger/hotmail etc. Keep the last half hour of the day to check personal e-mails. Manage your breaktime carefully and wisely. The first half hour of the day should be spent on planning. Remember that planning comes first and then comes execution. Keep your inbox clear from unnecessary mails/folders. Do all what it takes to be a good professional at work. Keep networking going with people, start handling more projects, keep your self-development and learning hours active and work even more harder on initiatives. Do all you can to keep your clients happy. Let them know that you're an efficient worker. At the end of each day do not forget to assess yourself.
Action Plan # 2-
Today when I was done cleaning up my room, I realised what I had just done! I did away with all the clutter that was not only around me but also with the clutter that was hanging in my brain. I suddenly experienced a feeling of lightness around me. Thoughts started to flow in my mind. I began to think like someone who knows what I want and what i don't want (I'm not over estimating this action trust me). From now on I strongly feel that I should start practising the whole cleanliness act which for most part of my life I thought was an over-exxagerated term/concept. Today I had suddenly realised that I had so many pair of lovely clothes and shoes which i could wear to work if I carefully pre-planned my weekdays wardrobe on weekends. I need to start doing this starting from today.
Action Plan # 3-
I nearly killed my bamboo shoot! I'm such a selfish soul. I was too caught up with my own life to even consider glancing past my little bamboo shoot. It was today while cleaning up I realised how yellow my plant has gone from being a green little fella. So my action plan # 3 is to save him and bring him back to life. I will care as much and start watering him every single day!
Action Plan # 4-
If the time is not NOW...it will always be a NO. Always! I want to slaughter the word 'proscratinate' out of my life. The rule of the game is the word NOW. Do it now or it may happen never. This will surely get my life into some means of definite order.
Action Plan # 5-
Keep upbreast with current affairs mainly the business news no matter what. Do it online or do it in real but do it. That's what matters. Subscribe news updates online. Read trade journals. Once you make it a habit it will stay.
Action Plan # 6-
Stay away from situations that you wouldn't want intervention at work. Keep repeating to yourself you got to save the job for all the several reasons that I know of. Let the HR know the value addition that I could bring across the table.
Action Plan # 7-
Stay fit. Look best to think best. Nothing is better than a well-groomed look. Re-start workouts all over again. Do not overstress like earliar but do in moderation.
I'm hoping I have done enough self-examination about the things to do. I can't wait to start my new day. Its a beautiful life and I need to remember that. I landed up with a non-fiction book that says 52 Ways to save your job (trust me this was pure co-incidence that i found it at the right time and I never really went hunting for it.) I've held too much of a resentment for self-help books all my life but this time I'm keeping my perspectives open. Its not fair to walk around with prejudices in our minds. I will keep all you guys posted if there is a take home from this book and maybe even drop in some work tips for you all. Until then a happy sign off note from me :)
I know there is so much to take care of at this point of my phase in life. And suddenly there is so much more to do!
To begin with, I came up with a list of all the things that I do and the sametime not proud of it. These things not only complicate my life but also get me massively disorganised. And so the list reads as follows:
1. Messy room- which not only means cluttered with clothes ranging from all sizes but also ending up clueless about what is kept where.
2. waking up late in the mornings.
3. Irregular workouts.
4. External distractions in the mind at workplace. Not being able to concentrate and give my full self at work. This has definitly affected me during my feedback with my manager.
5. Not being update with current affairs and business affairs. This is gonna make me a bad, dull and boring conversationalist someday!
6. Procrastination of important tasks/chores. I bet you all I can score the highest when it comes to procrastinating things.
7. Re-structuring/arranging my wardrobe. I'm terrible at this one especially when the whole room's messy. The terrible thing is when I'm sitting in front of my cupboard half awake at mornings and hopelessly pre-occupied with one side of my mind while the other side is trying to decide what clothes to wear for work. Sometimes I don't even realise that i spend 30 mins just trying to decide and struggle my way to see what matches with what.
8.Not being able to give time for myself on weekends.
9. Messy workstation. Messy Inbox. Totally messed up computer system with too many unnecessary folders and files.
10. Terrible time management skills.
Ok. Having realised the above things and plus a 25 minute discussion with my manager about my average performance at workplace, I felt worse than a walked-over banana skin.
Having experienced a mindful of terrible mixed emotions and a state of withdrawal ( ok i sound like a schezophrenic here but I'm not exxagerating), I decided that I can always choose to reverse things out for better or for good. I realised I had to save my job if I like the work that I'm doing and the kind of money my company is paying me. So I decided to come up with an action plan (a real strict one) and execute it. After all they say we should never despise the small beginings (in my case teeny-weeny beginings).
Action Plan # 1-
Manage time properly by carefully measuring the daylong activties at office. Each task should be timed so that I can try my best to finish them off in the given time period. Prepare a checklist of activities in a personal notebook. After completeing each task check it or strike it (with each strike comes a sense of elevation topped with exhileration). Keep the workstation tidy. No cluttered papers whatsover. Avoid personal talks with freinds who come online. Discipline yourself to strictly stop using orkut/facebook/gtalk/yahoo messenger/hotmail etc. Keep the last half hour of the day to check personal e-mails. Manage your breaktime carefully and wisely. The first half hour of the day should be spent on planning. Remember that planning comes first and then comes execution. Keep your inbox clear from unnecessary mails/folders. Do all what it takes to be a good professional at work. Keep networking going with people, start handling more projects, keep your self-development and learning hours active and work even more harder on initiatives. Do all you can to keep your clients happy. Let them know that you're an efficient worker. At the end of each day do not forget to assess yourself.
Action Plan # 2-
Today when I was done cleaning up my room, I realised what I had just done! I did away with all the clutter that was not only around me but also with the clutter that was hanging in my brain. I suddenly experienced a feeling of lightness around me. Thoughts started to flow in my mind. I began to think like someone who knows what I want and what i don't want (I'm not over estimating this action trust me). From now on I strongly feel that I should start practising the whole cleanliness act which for most part of my life I thought was an over-exxagerated term/concept. Today I had suddenly realised that I had so many pair of lovely clothes and shoes which i could wear to work if I carefully pre-planned my weekdays wardrobe on weekends. I need to start doing this starting from today.
Action Plan # 3-
I nearly killed my bamboo shoot! I'm such a selfish soul. I was too caught up with my own life to even consider glancing past my little bamboo shoot. It was today while cleaning up I realised how yellow my plant has gone from being a green little fella. So my action plan # 3 is to save him and bring him back to life. I will care as much and start watering him every single day!
Action Plan # 4-
If the time is not NOW...it will always be a NO. Always! I want to slaughter the word 'proscratinate' out of my life. The rule of the game is the word NOW. Do it now or it may happen never. This will surely get my life into some means of definite order.
Action Plan # 5-
Keep upbreast with current affairs mainly the business news no matter what. Do it online or do it in real but do it. That's what matters. Subscribe news updates online. Read trade journals. Once you make it a habit it will stay.
Action Plan # 6-
Stay away from situations that you wouldn't want intervention at work. Keep repeating to yourself you got to save the job for all the several reasons that I know of. Let the HR know the value addition that I could bring across the table.
Action Plan # 7-
Stay fit. Look best to think best. Nothing is better than a well-groomed look. Re-start workouts all over again. Do not overstress like earliar but do in moderation.
I'm hoping I have done enough self-examination about the things to do. I can't wait to start my new day. Its a beautiful life and I need to remember that. I landed up with a non-fiction book that says 52 Ways to save your job (trust me this was pure co-incidence that i found it at the right time and I never really went hunting for it.) I've held too much of a resentment for self-help books all my life but this time I'm keeping my perspectives open. Its not fair to walk around with prejudices in our minds. I will keep all you guys posted if there is a take home from this book and maybe even drop in some work tips for you all. Until then a happy sign off note from me :)
Friday, October 24, 2008
My current phase!
I think sometimes anticipation is the worst thing ever. I'm not saying to anticipate over things is wrong, but when we expect the result of our actions to always have a positive outcome, then I guess we need to pause and re-think.
Most typically we are used to acting upon our will. And in the course, we seldom think of the "what if" possibility. The "what if" possibility, which could be anything other than our own expectations. Does my point of view sound impractically impossible and indifferent to you? Well the fact remains that we always expect a result or an outcome to be the way we want it?
The question we need to ask ourselves is how can we handle all the unpleasant things in our lives which come to us most unexpectedly. I don't think I have figured this out myself as yet.
I'm waiting. For a breakthrough to happen in my life. And it seems to me like a lifelong process. And while this is all taking place, I feel that somewhere I'm living too comfortably all snuggled up. Not wanting to take risk. I heard about many sucess stories but I remember very little about the hardwork behind these sucess stories. Maybe its my time to do a fair share of deep introspection.
We often ask when is the change going to come into my life oh lord! When is it going to be my turn? Is there a true purpose to my being?
Well...I have a knowing that I've come to a phase where I'm doing the same things almost everyday! And this makes me older by each day. Waking up to bitter mornings is not an infrequent feeling anymore. I've known myself well enough until now. I have often wondered why is it that I can't think or be like all my freinds who are married. I'm only hoping my answer to this question is that I'm made for something more other than just being happily married. Yes, maybe I think I am.
Is lonliness just got to do with being single? Maybe not. The distance we can go to break our lonliness is quite amusing and obnoxious. Just the other day, I went and got myself registered in matrimonial and dating sites which I think is ridiculously unbelievable. My eyes are seeking for something that's not known. My lonliness speaks a lot to me. And yet it leaves an unspoken void within.
I've had relationships and I think I'm done with them for good. Mistaking infatuation with love is such a womanish thing. I'm sure about this one. And so, the next time I talk to a supposedly "interesting" man, I will have my warning alarms clocked up carefully. I know they will ring and prevent from the future damage.
It is tough to start living all over when we learn the hard way that mankind is selfish and its a selfish world. Everyone of us are living life just to fulfill our own needs. It is all about nothing but SELF-GRATIFICATION.
Most typically we are used to acting upon our will. And in the course, we seldom think of the "what if" possibility. The "what if" possibility, which could be anything other than our own expectations. Does my point of view sound impractically impossible and indifferent to you? Well the fact remains that we always expect a result or an outcome to be the way we want it?
The question we need to ask ourselves is how can we handle all the unpleasant things in our lives which come to us most unexpectedly. I don't think I have figured this out myself as yet.
I'm waiting. For a breakthrough to happen in my life. And it seems to me like a lifelong process. And while this is all taking place, I feel that somewhere I'm living too comfortably all snuggled up. Not wanting to take risk. I heard about many sucess stories but I remember very little about the hardwork behind these sucess stories. Maybe its my time to do a fair share of deep introspection.
We often ask when is the change going to come into my life oh lord! When is it going to be my turn? Is there a true purpose to my being?
Well...I have a knowing that I've come to a phase where I'm doing the same things almost everyday! And this makes me older by each day. Waking up to bitter mornings is not an infrequent feeling anymore. I've known myself well enough until now. I have often wondered why is it that I can't think or be like all my freinds who are married. I'm only hoping my answer to this question is that I'm made for something more other than just being happily married. Yes, maybe I think I am.
Is lonliness just got to do with being single? Maybe not. The distance we can go to break our lonliness is quite amusing and obnoxious. Just the other day, I went and got myself registered in matrimonial and dating sites which I think is ridiculously unbelievable. My eyes are seeking for something that's not known. My lonliness speaks a lot to me. And yet it leaves an unspoken void within.
I've had relationships and I think I'm done with them for good. Mistaking infatuation with love is such a womanish thing. I'm sure about this one. And so, the next time I talk to a supposedly "interesting" man, I will have my warning alarms clocked up carefully. I know they will ring and prevent from the future damage.
It is tough to start living all over when we learn the hard way that mankind is selfish and its a selfish world. Everyone of us are living life just to fulfill our own needs. It is all about nothing but SELF-GRATIFICATION.
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