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8 days have passed since the aftermath.
This time however things are not back to normal. The recent Mumbai terrorist attacks also known as the 9/11 of India has shaken not just most of us but all of us!!
The rubble still remains and the threat is not completely fixed as yet. People in Mumbai are still seen running helter skelter to recover from their state of disaster. Several victims have been hospitalised and the condition is just getting worse. Nothing which is of public can be trusted safe anymore- the crowded street corners, the public parks, the local trains, the airports just about nothing at all.
All this is nothing but a gruseome reality. What appeared to be a little more than a dazzling palace is now brought down to ruins. The Taj that once stood proudly is now badly battered and gutted!
The youth are demanding answers to their questions. Rhetoric slogans have been raised, revolutionising debates have been talked on the T.V and this is just the begining. We all know lighting candles and paying condolences is not going to help us anymore. We want something that is promising. A reforming Police and defense system. A dynamic and no nonsense political system and much more.
Indian politicians are corrupt and just a bunch of pot-bellied selfish nincompoops who want to fill their bank accounts. None of these series of blasts affects them. What a disgrace! What a curse!
India is going through a lot. She's hurt and her pride is gone down to the gutters. What a wreched bunch of people is she being looked after (the politicians). It is truly disappointing. I don't feel proud to be an Indian. I probably may never!!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Nailed!
After putting in a lot of thoughts together, I have finally decided to do my part - to clear off the unneccesary clutter from my life! A simple practice such as alt+shift+delete has so much meaning to our non-computer living side of life.
I know there is so much to take care of at this point of my phase in life. And suddenly there is so much more to do!
To begin with, I came up with a list of all the things that I do and the sametime not proud of it. These things not only complicate my life but also get me massively disorganised. And so the list reads as follows:
1. Messy room- which not only means cluttered with clothes ranging from all sizes but also ending up clueless about what is kept where.
2. waking up late in the mornings.
3. Irregular workouts.
4. External distractions in the mind at workplace. Not being able to concentrate and give my full self at work. This has definitly affected me during my feedback with my manager.
5. Not being update with current affairs and business affairs. This is gonna make me a bad, dull and boring conversationalist someday!
6. Procrastination of important tasks/chores. I bet you all I can score the highest when it comes to procrastinating things.
7. Re-structuring/arranging my wardrobe. I'm terrible at this one especially when the whole room's messy. The terrible thing is when I'm sitting in front of my cupboard half awake at mornings and hopelessly pre-occupied with one side of my mind while the other side is trying to decide what clothes to wear for work. Sometimes I don't even realise that i spend 30 mins just trying to decide and struggle my way to see what matches with what.
8.Not being able to give time for myself on weekends.
9. Messy workstation. Messy Inbox. Totally messed up computer system with too many unnecessary folders and files.
10. Terrible time management skills.
Ok. Having realised the above things and plus a 25 minute discussion with my manager about my average performance at workplace, I felt worse than a walked-over banana skin.
Having experienced a mindful of terrible mixed emotions and a state of withdrawal ( ok i sound like a schezophrenic here but I'm not exxagerating), I decided that I can always choose to reverse things out for better or for good. I realised I had to save my job if I like the work that I'm doing and the kind of money my company is paying me. So I decided to come up with an action plan (a real strict one) and execute it. After all they say we should never despise the small beginings (in my case teeny-weeny beginings).
Action Plan # 1-
Manage time properly by carefully measuring the daylong activties at office. Each task should be timed so that I can try my best to finish them off in the given time period. Prepare a checklist of activities in a personal notebook. After completeing each task check it or strike it (with each strike comes a sense of elevation topped with exhileration). Keep the workstation tidy. No cluttered papers whatsover. Avoid personal talks with freinds who come online. Discipline yourself to strictly stop using orkut/facebook/gtalk/yahoo messenger/hotmail etc. Keep the last half hour of the day to check personal e-mails. Manage your breaktime carefully and wisely. The first half hour of the day should be spent on planning. Remember that planning comes first and then comes execution. Keep your inbox clear from unnecessary mails/folders. Do all what it takes to be a good professional at work. Keep networking going with people, start handling more projects, keep your self-development and learning hours active and work even more harder on initiatives. Do all you can to keep your clients happy. Let them know that you're an efficient worker. At the end of each day do not forget to assess yourself.
Action Plan # 2-
Today when I was done cleaning up my room, I realised what I had just done! I did away with all the clutter that was not only around me but also with the clutter that was hanging in my brain. I suddenly experienced a feeling of lightness around me. Thoughts started to flow in my mind. I began to think like someone who knows what I want and what i don't want (I'm not over estimating this action trust me). From now on I strongly feel that I should start practising the whole cleanliness act which for most part of my life I thought was an over-exxagerated term/concept. Today I had suddenly realised that I had so many pair of lovely clothes and shoes which i could wear to work if I carefully pre-planned my weekdays wardrobe on weekends. I need to start doing this starting from today.
Action Plan # 3-
I nearly killed my bamboo shoot! I'm such a selfish soul. I was too caught up with my own life to even consider glancing past my little bamboo shoot. It was today while cleaning up I realised how yellow my plant has gone from being a green little fella. So my action plan # 3 is to save him and bring him back to life. I will care as much and start watering him every single day!
Action Plan # 4-
If the time is not NOW...it will always be a NO. Always! I want to slaughter the word 'proscratinate' out of my life. The rule of the game is the word NOW. Do it now or it may happen never. This will surely get my life into some means of definite order.
Action Plan # 5-
Keep upbreast with current affairs mainly the business news no matter what. Do it online or do it in real but do it. That's what matters. Subscribe news updates online. Read trade journals. Once you make it a habit it will stay.
Action Plan # 6-
Stay away from situations that you wouldn't want intervention at work. Keep repeating to yourself you got to save the job for all the several reasons that I know of. Let the HR know the value addition that I could bring across the table.
Action Plan # 7-
Stay fit. Look best to think best. Nothing is better than a well-groomed look. Re-start workouts all over again. Do not overstress like earliar but do in moderation.
I'm hoping I have done enough self-examination about the things to do. I can't wait to start my new day. Its a beautiful life and I need to remember that. I landed up with a non-fiction book that says 52 Ways to save your job (trust me this was pure co-incidence that i found it at the right time and I never really went hunting for it.) I've held too much of a resentment for self-help books all my life but this time I'm keeping my perspectives open. Its not fair to walk around with prejudices in our minds. I will keep all you guys posted if there is a take home from this book and maybe even drop in some work tips for you all. Until then a happy sign off note from me :)
I know there is so much to take care of at this point of my phase in life. And suddenly there is so much more to do!
To begin with, I came up with a list of all the things that I do and the sametime not proud of it. These things not only complicate my life but also get me massively disorganised. And so the list reads as follows:
1. Messy room- which not only means cluttered with clothes ranging from all sizes but also ending up clueless about what is kept where.
2. waking up late in the mornings.
3. Irregular workouts.
4. External distractions in the mind at workplace. Not being able to concentrate and give my full self at work. This has definitly affected me during my feedback with my manager.
5. Not being update with current affairs and business affairs. This is gonna make me a bad, dull and boring conversationalist someday!
6. Procrastination of important tasks/chores. I bet you all I can score the highest when it comes to procrastinating things.
7. Re-structuring/arranging my wardrobe. I'm terrible at this one especially when the whole room's messy. The terrible thing is when I'm sitting in front of my cupboard half awake at mornings and hopelessly pre-occupied with one side of my mind while the other side is trying to decide what clothes to wear for work. Sometimes I don't even realise that i spend 30 mins just trying to decide and struggle my way to see what matches with what.
8.Not being able to give time for myself on weekends.
9. Messy workstation. Messy Inbox. Totally messed up computer system with too many unnecessary folders and files.
10. Terrible time management skills.
Ok. Having realised the above things and plus a 25 minute discussion with my manager about my average performance at workplace, I felt worse than a walked-over banana skin.
Having experienced a mindful of terrible mixed emotions and a state of withdrawal ( ok i sound like a schezophrenic here but I'm not exxagerating), I decided that I can always choose to reverse things out for better or for good. I realised I had to save my job if I like the work that I'm doing and the kind of money my company is paying me. So I decided to come up with an action plan (a real strict one) and execute it. After all they say we should never despise the small beginings (in my case teeny-weeny beginings).
Action Plan # 1-
Manage time properly by carefully measuring the daylong activties at office. Each task should be timed so that I can try my best to finish them off in the given time period. Prepare a checklist of activities in a personal notebook. After completeing each task check it or strike it (with each strike comes a sense of elevation topped with exhileration). Keep the workstation tidy. No cluttered papers whatsover. Avoid personal talks with freinds who come online. Discipline yourself to strictly stop using orkut/facebook/gtalk/yahoo messenger/hotmail etc. Keep the last half hour of the day to check personal e-mails. Manage your breaktime carefully and wisely. The first half hour of the day should be spent on planning. Remember that planning comes first and then comes execution. Keep your inbox clear from unnecessary mails/folders. Do all what it takes to be a good professional at work. Keep networking going with people, start handling more projects, keep your self-development and learning hours active and work even more harder on initiatives. Do all you can to keep your clients happy. Let them know that you're an efficient worker. At the end of each day do not forget to assess yourself.
Action Plan # 2-
Today when I was done cleaning up my room, I realised what I had just done! I did away with all the clutter that was not only around me but also with the clutter that was hanging in my brain. I suddenly experienced a feeling of lightness around me. Thoughts started to flow in my mind. I began to think like someone who knows what I want and what i don't want (I'm not over estimating this action trust me). From now on I strongly feel that I should start practising the whole cleanliness act which for most part of my life I thought was an over-exxagerated term/concept. Today I had suddenly realised that I had so many pair of lovely clothes and shoes which i could wear to work if I carefully pre-planned my weekdays wardrobe on weekends. I need to start doing this starting from today.
Action Plan # 3-
I nearly killed my bamboo shoot! I'm such a selfish soul. I was too caught up with my own life to even consider glancing past my little bamboo shoot. It was today while cleaning up I realised how yellow my plant has gone from being a green little fella. So my action plan # 3 is to save him and bring him back to life. I will care as much and start watering him every single day!
Action Plan # 4-
If the time is not NOW...it will always be a NO. Always! I want to slaughter the word 'proscratinate' out of my life. The rule of the game is the word NOW. Do it now or it may happen never. This will surely get my life into some means of definite order.
Action Plan # 5-
Keep upbreast with current affairs mainly the business news no matter what. Do it online or do it in real but do it. That's what matters. Subscribe news updates online. Read trade journals. Once you make it a habit it will stay.
Action Plan # 6-
Stay away from situations that you wouldn't want intervention at work. Keep repeating to yourself you got to save the job for all the several reasons that I know of. Let the HR know the value addition that I could bring across the table.
Action Plan # 7-
Stay fit. Look best to think best. Nothing is better than a well-groomed look. Re-start workouts all over again. Do not overstress like earliar but do in moderation.
I'm hoping I have done enough self-examination about the things to do. I can't wait to start my new day. Its a beautiful life and I need to remember that. I landed up with a non-fiction book that says 52 Ways to save your job (trust me this was pure co-incidence that i found it at the right time and I never really went hunting for it.) I've held too much of a resentment for self-help books all my life but this time I'm keeping my perspectives open. Its not fair to walk around with prejudices in our minds. I will keep all you guys posted if there is a take home from this book and maybe even drop in some work tips for you all. Until then a happy sign off note from me :)
Friday, October 24, 2008
My current phase!
I think sometimes anticipation is the worst thing ever. I'm not saying to anticipate over things is wrong, but when we expect the result of our actions to always have a positive outcome, then I guess we need to pause and re-think.
Most typically we are used to acting upon our will. And in the course, we seldom think of the "what if" possibility. The "what if" possibility, which could be anything other than our own expectations. Does my point of view sound impractically impossible and indifferent to you? Well the fact remains that we always expect a result or an outcome to be the way we want it?
The question we need to ask ourselves is how can we handle all the unpleasant things in our lives which come to us most unexpectedly. I don't think I have figured this out myself as yet.
I'm waiting. For a breakthrough to happen in my life. And it seems to me like a lifelong process. And while this is all taking place, I feel that somewhere I'm living too comfortably all snuggled up. Not wanting to take risk. I heard about many sucess stories but I remember very little about the hardwork behind these sucess stories. Maybe its my time to do a fair share of deep introspection.
We often ask when is the change going to come into my life oh lord! When is it going to be my turn? Is there a true purpose to my being?
Well...I have a knowing that I've come to a phase where I'm doing the same things almost everyday! And this makes me older by each day. Waking up to bitter mornings is not an infrequent feeling anymore. I've known myself well enough until now. I have often wondered why is it that I can't think or be like all my freinds who are married. I'm only hoping my answer to this question is that I'm made for something more other than just being happily married. Yes, maybe I think I am.
Is lonliness just got to do with being single? Maybe not. The distance we can go to break our lonliness is quite amusing and obnoxious. Just the other day, I went and got myself registered in matrimonial and dating sites which I think is ridiculously unbelievable. My eyes are seeking for something that's not known. My lonliness speaks a lot to me. And yet it leaves an unspoken void within.
I've had relationships and I think I'm done with them for good. Mistaking infatuation with love is such a womanish thing. I'm sure about this one. And so, the next time I talk to a supposedly "interesting" man, I will have my warning alarms clocked up carefully. I know they will ring and prevent from the future damage.
It is tough to start living all over when we learn the hard way that mankind is selfish and its a selfish world. Everyone of us are living life just to fulfill our own needs. It is all about nothing but SELF-GRATIFICATION.
Most typically we are used to acting upon our will. And in the course, we seldom think of the "what if" possibility. The "what if" possibility, which could be anything other than our own expectations. Does my point of view sound impractically impossible and indifferent to you? Well the fact remains that we always expect a result or an outcome to be the way we want it?
The question we need to ask ourselves is how can we handle all the unpleasant things in our lives which come to us most unexpectedly. I don't think I have figured this out myself as yet.
I'm waiting. For a breakthrough to happen in my life. And it seems to me like a lifelong process. And while this is all taking place, I feel that somewhere I'm living too comfortably all snuggled up. Not wanting to take risk. I heard about many sucess stories but I remember very little about the hardwork behind these sucess stories. Maybe its my time to do a fair share of deep introspection.
We often ask when is the change going to come into my life oh lord! When is it going to be my turn? Is there a true purpose to my being?
Well...I have a knowing that I've come to a phase where I'm doing the same things almost everyday! And this makes me older by each day. Waking up to bitter mornings is not an infrequent feeling anymore. I've known myself well enough until now. I have often wondered why is it that I can't think or be like all my freinds who are married. I'm only hoping my answer to this question is that I'm made for something more other than just being happily married. Yes, maybe I think I am.
Is lonliness just got to do with being single? Maybe not. The distance we can go to break our lonliness is quite amusing and obnoxious. Just the other day, I went and got myself registered in matrimonial and dating sites which I think is ridiculously unbelievable. My eyes are seeking for something that's not known. My lonliness speaks a lot to me. And yet it leaves an unspoken void within.
I've had relationships and I think I'm done with them for good. Mistaking infatuation with love is such a womanish thing. I'm sure about this one. And so, the next time I talk to a supposedly "interesting" man, I will have my warning alarms clocked up carefully. I know they will ring and prevent from the future damage.
It is tough to start living all over when we learn the hard way that mankind is selfish and its a selfish world. Everyone of us are living life just to fulfill our own needs. It is all about nothing but SELF-GRATIFICATION.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
I wish men had PMS troubles too. Why should I be the one who's always dealing with depression and gloom??
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Escape? or Freedom??
Are you sure you can go all alone?
"yes I'm sure. No big deal. I can go on my own"
Do you think you can manage to cross the road at this part of the night and be safe?
"Yeah. Why not?!"
Well...I'm a little skeptical. It's late and you're a lady. What if some goons try to chase you? Do you think you will be able to handle it?
Of course I can. C'mon now, I'm not a baby ok!! Just relax!
Just then, the rick stopped. I got down. Bid bye to my best friend. I saw some men on the other side of the road. I knew they were watching me but I must take my chances. I muster courage. I know anything can happen. But nothing can go wrong if I dont let it. I muster courage.
I should be prepared to go through anything that I dread. I muster courage again. I'm crossing the road now. With each step I'm heading closer to these bunch of men. They're laughing aloud amongst themselves, trying their best to get my attention. They can see I'm alone and they probably want to intimidate me. I muster courage. I walk with confidence. Chin up and head straight. The look on my face is rather serious than nervous.
They may guess I'm not scared or anxious by the look I carry over my face. But they dont know that this is my first time and that I'm taking my chances. I'm giving my best into this whole situation and now I am more easy to get noticed as I head more closer to their sight. I almost walk past them.
I confidently walk towards my two-wheeler, kickstart it, put on my helmet and zooom away.
You did it rids!!! You took your chance. You're a winner this time, yet again!!!
Maybe we can all someday overcome fear by taking our share of chances. If this can set us free, then should I be calling it as Freedom??
"yes I'm sure. No big deal. I can go on my own"
Do you think you can manage to cross the road at this part of the night and be safe?
"Yeah. Why not?!"
Well...I'm a little skeptical. It's late and you're a lady. What if some goons try to chase you? Do you think you will be able to handle it?
Of course I can. C'mon now, I'm not a baby ok!! Just relax!
Just then, the rick stopped. I got down. Bid bye to my best friend. I saw some men on the other side of the road. I knew they were watching me but I must take my chances. I muster courage. I know anything can happen. But nothing can go wrong if I dont let it. I muster courage.
I should be prepared to go through anything that I dread. I muster courage again. I'm crossing the road now. With each step I'm heading closer to these bunch of men. They're laughing aloud amongst themselves, trying their best to get my attention. They can see I'm alone and they probably want to intimidate me. I muster courage. I walk with confidence. Chin up and head straight. The look on my face is rather serious than nervous.
They may guess I'm not scared or anxious by the look I carry over my face. But they dont know that this is my first time and that I'm taking my chances. I'm giving my best into this whole situation and now I am more easy to get noticed as I head more closer to their sight. I almost walk past them.
I confidently walk towards my two-wheeler, kickstart it, put on my helmet and zooom away.
You did it rids!!! You took your chance. You're a winner this time, yet again!!!
Maybe we can all someday overcome fear by taking our share of chances. If this can set us free, then should I be calling it as Freedom??
Friday, September 26, 2008
The world I live in...
The thoughts I'm about to write is purely out of desperation. A sort of frantic desperation and the need to be heard. These thoughts, you can call them just plain random thoughts. They may not really make sense to you readers who walk past my blog. They may in fact quite incidentally sound unmatched, unlikely, abstract or strange. Nevertheless they're my thoughts. And they have evolved out of my innermost system of belief.
As I sit and begin to introspect myself (which I hardly get to do these days due to the busy life that I lead unfortunately), I realise many things. Things that I've never known about myself. And before I could forget them (quite strangely), I wanted to put them down in here.
To begin with, I have noticed that I am changing. Or you could perhaps call it the word-Transforming!
Transforming into something more or something better or something newer. To my surprise, this change is happening at a phenominal speed of almost everyday! I am not sure if this used to happen previously, or if it is just the way I have started to think. I guess it really must be me, maybe I have become a little more attentive to myself lately. Maybe I really have started to observe myself more closely. Well, I'm not sure. But I feel good about this change. I feel like I'm growing.
I have many problems in my life. I have many complaints. I have many insecurities. I have several regrets (which for the first time in my life i don't wanna deny). I have failed in my relationships in the past with people. I have not always kept my words. I have not always achieved what I planned. Sometimes I run out of money. Sometimes I fight with my very inferior feelings. Sometimes I underestimate my very own capabilities. I have made some disgusting decisions in my life and have repented them later on. I often mis judge my beliefs. Sometimes I fail to recognize when success falls at my feet. And even while I'm writing all this, I might be probably missing out on remembering so many other things that I failed to do.
But after all this, what matters is that I am begining to re-live my life, inspite of the several inconsistencies. And while I'm still changing, I am a contended person. I am transforming. I am free. And I am loving it.
I am 25 yrs old. I am almost single. I am independent- financially and also otherwise in some ways. I own a fancy job title. I am earning decent enough to support my family, to shop and to save. I am attractive. I get plenty of attention from the opposite sex (sometimes it brings about a nice feeling). I am creative -in my thoughts, in my opinions, in art and in my sense of dressing. I like the way I move and carry myself in crowd. I love watching cows-(yes, cows! wierd as it may sound but I don't mind saying it loud. For some reason I think they are a lovely creation and the most beautiful of animals I have seen. They look so pretty through my eyes.)
Life is just not about counting your inconsistencies but also knowing all the good things that we have. And that's why it was important for me to write stuff that I wrote above.
There is so much more I want to do. Life is beautiful. Each day smells good. Each days looks good. Each day reminds me of goodness. Each day speaks to me.
Yes, life is beautiful and there is so much i wanna do. I want to study further. Maybe do an MBA and also study cooking. I want to work as a chef in a hotel abroad. I want to settle in a western country (particularly because of the order and systems prevelant there). I want to travel around many places with beautiful locales. I want to adopt an asian kid (particularly chinese or a korean or a taiwanese) I want to be married with a family. I want to have a great married life. I want to own a bakery that makes lovely croissants, gateaux and muffins. All made by my own hands. I want to own a library. I want to own a book shop. I want to sit by a Christmas tree. And do so much more. These are probably just a handful of thoughts of all the things I want to do. Just like a handful of sand amidst a whole shore. But yes, I want to live this life inspite of the inconsistencies. Because it's a beautiful Life.
It indeed is a beautiful life! It feels great that I'm the chosen one. The chosen one, by none other than the GOD himself.
Yes! This life is beautiful!! I will live it as much as I can...
Pause. Stop. Think.
After a series of eye-opening incidents, I have realised it is so important to have an individualistic perspective towards life rather than agreeing to people's general opinions. Atleast it isn't really working that way with me. My opinions matter to me more than what others ask/tell me to do. To me, knowing what's inside "My world" is far too necessary. The last few days have not been quite good for me. I think I need to spend more time with myself. Figuring out a solution would just follow...
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