Monday, December 8, 2008

What is 9th of December??

Posted by Mood Swings at 12:11 PM 3 comments

Happy Birthday to me!!!

I dont have both my best friends in town this year! But heck i dont really see that as a reason to not celebrate 26 years of my existence naaah SURVIVAL on this planet!! LOL. Yes, am turning another year older today, i already have :P

I plan to grow old gracefully. I know there is so much more to do for me.

But for now here is what i would like to do as an immediate plan-

1. Buy that beautiful Monte Carlo sweater as a gift for myself !!!

2. Indulge in a real LAVISH lunch ...yuuum!!

3. Catch upon my memories in the past and cherish this life despite all the messy situations!!

4. Count my blessings of course (well yeah i do belive in God and I'm god fearing)

5. Write a checklist of things i love doing and things that i wanna do from here on. (Wow its not going to be easy but it should be real fun)

Well and this is for all my people who are close to me, its my promise to stay close to your hearts. I would love you and keep you close to my heart as much as you would. This may sound strange but thanks mum, thanks dad for bringing me into this big bad world and showing me things that I would wanna learn and grow from!!

Happy Birthday to me once again :)) !!!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

What times are we living in??

Posted by Mood Swings at 7:01 PM 0 comments
8 days have passed since the aftermath.

This time however things are not back to normal. The recent Mumbai terrorist attacks also known as the 9/11 of India has shaken not just most of us but all of us!!

The rubble still remains and the threat is not completely fixed as yet. People in Mumbai are still seen running helter skelter to recover from their state of disaster. Several victims have been hospitalised and the condition is just getting worse. Nothing which is of public can be trusted safe anymore- the crowded street corners, the public parks, the local trains, the airports just about nothing at all.

All this is nothing but a gruseome reality. What appeared to be a little more than a dazzling palace is now brought down to ruins. The Taj that once stood proudly is now badly battered and gutted!

The youth are demanding answers to their questions. Rhetoric slogans have been raised, revolutionising debates have been talked on the T.V and this is just the begining. We all know lighting candles and paying condolences is not going to help us anymore. We want something that is promising. A reforming Police and defense system. A dynamic and no nonsense political system and much more.

Indian politicians are corrupt and just a bunch of pot-bellied selfish nincompoops who want to fill their bank accounts. None of these series of blasts affects them. What a disgrace! What a curse!

India is going through a lot. She's hurt and her pride is gone down to the gutters. What a wreched bunch of people is she being looked after (the politicians). It is truly disappointing. I don't feel proud to be an Indian. I probably may never!!

Sunday, October 26, 2008


Posted by Mood Swings at 9:23 AM 3 comments
After putting in a lot of thoughts together, I have finally decided to do my part - to clear off the unneccesary clutter from my life! A simple practice such as alt+shift+delete has so much meaning to our non-computer living side of life.

I know there is so much to take care of at this point of my phase in life. And suddenly there is so much more to do!

To begin with, I came up with a list of all the things that I do and the sametime not proud of it. These things not only complicate my life but also get me massively disorganised. And so the list reads as follows:
1. Messy room- which not only means cluttered with clothes ranging from all sizes but also ending up clueless about what is kept where.
2. waking up late in the mornings.
3. Irregular workouts.
4. External distractions in the mind at workplace. Not being able to concentrate and give my full self at work. This has definitly affected me during my feedback with my manager.
5. Not being update with current affairs and business affairs. This is gonna make me a bad, dull and boring conversationalist someday!
6. Procrastination of important tasks/chores. I bet you all I can score the highest when it comes to procrastinating things.
7. Re-structuring/arranging my wardrobe. I'm terrible at this one especially when the whole room's messy. The terrible thing is when I'm sitting in front of my cupboard half awake at mornings and hopelessly pre-occupied with one side of my mind while the other side is trying to decide what clothes to wear for work. Sometimes I don't even realise that i spend 30 mins just trying to decide and struggle my way to see what matches with what.
8.Not being able to give time for myself on weekends.
9. Messy workstation. Messy Inbox. Totally messed up computer system with too many unnecessary folders and files.
10. Terrible time management skills.

Ok. Having realised the above things and plus a 25 minute discussion with my manager about my average performance at workplace, I felt worse than a walked-over banana skin.

Having experienced a mindful of terrible mixed emotions and a state of withdrawal ( ok i sound like a schezophrenic here but I'm not exxagerating), I decided that I can always choose to reverse things out for better or for good. I realised I had to save my job if I like the work that I'm doing and the kind of money my company is paying me. So I decided to come up with an action plan (a real strict one) and execute it. After all they say we should never despise the small beginings (in my case teeny-weeny beginings).

Action Plan # 1-

Manage time properly by carefully measuring the daylong activties at office. Each task should be timed so that I can try my best to finish them off in the given time period. Prepare a checklist of activities in a personal notebook. After completeing each task check it or strike it (with each strike comes a sense of elevation topped with exhileration). Keep the workstation tidy. No cluttered papers whatsover. Avoid personal talks with freinds who come online. Discipline yourself to strictly stop using orkut/facebook/gtalk/yahoo messenger/hotmail etc. Keep the last half hour of the day to check personal e-mails. Manage your breaktime carefully and wisely. The first half hour of the day should be spent on planning. Remember that planning comes first and then comes execution. Keep your inbox clear from unnecessary mails/folders. Do all what it takes to be a good professional at work. Keep networking going with people, start handling more projects, keep your self-development and learning hours active and work even more harder on initiatives. Do all you can to keep your clients happy. Let them know that you're an efficient worker. At the end of each day do not forget to assess yourself.

Action Plan # 2-

Today when I was done cleaning up my room, I realised what I had just done! I did away with all the clutter that was not only around me but also with the clutter that was hanging in my brain. I suddenly experienced a feeling of lightness around me. Thoughts started to flow in my mind. I began to think like someone who knows what I want and what i don't want (I'm not over estimating this action trust me). From now on I strongly feel that I should start practising the whole cleanliness act which for most part of my life I thought was an over-exxagerated term/concept. Today I had suddenly realised that I had so many pair of lovely clothes and shoes which i could wear to work if I carefully pre-planned my weekdays wardrobe on weekends. I need to start doing this starting from today.

Action Plan # 3-

I nearly killed my bamboo shoot! I'm such a selfish soul. I was too caught up with my own life to even consider glancing past my little bamboo shoot. It was today while cleaning up I realised how yellow my plant has gone from being a green little fella. So my action plan # 3 is to save him and bring him back to life. I will care as much and start watering him every single day!

Action Plan # 4-

If the time is not will always be a NO. Always! I want to slaughter the word 'proscratinate' out of my life. The rule of the game is the word NOW. Do it now or it may happen never. This will surely get my life into some means of definite order.

Action Plan # 5-

Keep upbreast with current affairs mainly the business news no matter what. Do it online or do it in real but do it. That's what matters. Subscribe news updates online. Read trade journals. Once you make it a habit it will stay.

Action Plan # 6-

Stay away from situations that you wouldn't want intervention at work. Keep repeating to yourself you got to save the job for all the several reasons that I know of. Let the HR know the value addition that I could bring across the table.

Action Plan # 7-

Stay fit. Look best to think best. Nothing is better than a well-groomed look. Re-start workouts all over again. Do not overstress like earliar but do in moderation.

I'm hoping I have done enough self-examination about the things to do. I can't wait to start my new day. Its a beautiful life and I need to remember that. I landed up with a non-fiction book that says 52 Ways to save your job (trust me this was pure co-incidence that i found it at the right time and I never really went hunting for it.) I've held too much of a resentment for self-help books all my life but this time I'm keeping my perspectives open. Its not fair to walk around with prejudices in our minds. I will keep all you guys posted if there is a take home from this book and maybe even drop in some work tips for you all. Until then a happy sign off note from me :)

Friday, October 24, 2008

My current phase!

Posted by Mood Swings at 4:31 PM 2 comments
I think sometimes anticipation is the worst thing ever. I'm not saying to anticipate over things is wrong, but when we expect the result of our actions to always have a positive outcome, then I guess we need to pause and re-think.

Most typically we are used to acting upon our will. And in the course, we seldom think of the "what if" possibility. The "what if" possibility, which could be anything other than our own expectations. Does my point of view sound impractically impossible and indifferent to you? Well the fact remains that we always expect a result or an outcome to be the way we want it?

The question we need to ask ourselves is how can we handle all the unpleasant things in our lives which come to us most unexpectedly. I don't think I have figured this out myself as yet.

I'm waiting. For a breakthrough to happen in my life. And it seems to me like a lifelong process. And while this is all taking place, I feel that somewhere I'm living too comfortably all snuggled up. Not wanting to take risk. I heard about many sucess stories but I remember very little about the hardwork behind these sucess stories. Maybe its my time to do a fair share of deep introspection.

We often ask when is the change going to come into my life oh lord! When is it going to be my turn? Is there a true purpose to my being?

Well...I have a knowing that I've come to a phase where I'm doing the same things almost everyday! And this makes me older by each day. Waking up to bitter mornings is not an infrequent feeling anymore. I've known myself well enough until now. I have often wondered why is it that I can't think or be like all my freinds who are married. I'm only hoping my answer to this question is that I'm made for something more other than just being happily married. Yes, maybe I think I am.

Is lonliness just got to do with being single? Maybe not. The distance we can go to break our lonliness is quite amusing and obnoxious. Just the other day, I went and got myself registered in matrimonial and dating sites which I think is ridiculously unbelievable. My eyes are seeking for something that's not known. My lonliness speaks a lot to me. And yet it leaves an unspoken void within.

I've had relationships and I think I'm done with them for good. Mistaking infatuation with love is such a womanish thing. I'm sure about this one. And so, the next time I talk to a supposedly "interesting" man, I will have my warning alarms clocked up carefully. I know they will ring and prevent from the future damage.

It is tough to start living all over when we learn the hard way that mankind is selfish and its a selfish world. Everyone of us are living life just to fulfill our own needs. It is all about nothing but SELF-GRATIFICATION.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Posted by Mood Swings at 5:01 AM 5 comments
I wish men had PMS troubles too. Why should I be the one who's always dealing with depression and gloom??

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Escape? or Freedom??

Posted by Mood Swings at 8:56 AM 3 comments
Are you sure you can go all alone?
"yes I'm sure. No big deal. I can go on my own"
Do you think you can manage to cross the road at this part of the night and be safe?
"Yeah. Why not?!"
Well...I'm a little skeptical. It's late and you're a lady. What if some goons try to chase you? Do you think you will be able to handle it?
Of course I can. C'mon now, I'm not a baby ok!! Just relax!

Just then, the rick stopped. I got down. Bid bye to my best friend. I saw some men on the other side of the road. I knew they were watching me but I must take my chances. I muster courage. I know anything can happen. But nothing can go wrong if I dont let it. I muster courage.

I should be prepared to go through anything that I dread. I muster courage again. I'm crossing the road now. With each step I'm heading closer to these bunch of men. They're laughing aloud amongst themselves, trying their best to get my attention. They can see I'm alone and they probably want to intimidate me. I muster courage. I walk with confidence. Chin up and head straight. The look on my face is rather serious than nervous.

They may guess I'm not scared or anxious by the look I carry over my face. But they dont know that this is my first time and that I'm taking my chances. I'm giving my best into this whole situation and now I am more easy to get noticed as I head more closer to their sight. I almost walk past them.

I confidently walk towards my two-wheeler, kickstart it, put on my helmet and zooom away.

You did it rids!!! You took your chance. You're a winner this time, yet again!!!

Maybe we can all someday overcome fear by taking our share of chances. If this can set us free, then should I be calling it as Freedom??

Friday, September 26, 2008

The world I live in...

Posted by Mood Swings at 12:37 PM 7 comments

The thoughts I'm about to write is purely out of desperation. A sort of frantic desperation and the need to be heard. These thoughts, you can call them just plain random thoughts. They may not really make sense to you readers who walk past my blog. They may in fact quite incidentally sound unmatched, unlikely, abstract or strange. Nevertheless they're my thoughts. And they have evolved out of my innermost system of belief.

As I sit and begin to introspect myself (which I hardly get to do these days due to the busy life that I lead unfortunately), I realise many things. Things that I've never known about myself. And before I could forget them (quite strangely), I wanted to put them down in here.

To begin with, I have noticed that I am changing. Or you could perhaps call it the word-Transforming!

Transforming into something more or something better or something newer. To my surprise, this change is happening at a phenominal speed of almost everyday! I am not sure if this used to happen previously, or if it is just the way I have started to think. I guess it really must be me, maybe I have become a little more attentive to myself lately. Maybe I really have started to observe myself more closely. Well, I'm not sure. But I feel good about this change. I feel like I'm growing.

I have many problems in my life. I have many complaints. I have many insecurities. I have several regrets (which for the first time in my life i don't wanna deny). I have failed in my relationships in the past with people. I have not always kept my words. I have not always achieved what I planned. Sometimes I run out of money. Sometimes I fight with my very inferior feelings. Sometimes I underestimate my very own capabilities. I have made some disgusting decisions in my life and have repented them later on. I often mis judge my beliefs. Sometimes I fail to recognize when success falls at my feet. And even while I'm writing all this, I might be probably missing out on remembering so many other things that I failed to do.

But after all this, what matters is that I am begining to re-live my life, inspite of the several inconsistencies. And while I'm still changing, I am a contended person. I am transforming. I am free. And I am loving it.

I am 25 yrs old. I am almost single. I am independent- financially and also otherwise in some ways. I own a fancy job title. I am earning decent enough to support my family, to shop and to save. I am attractive. I get plenty of attention from the opposite sex (sometimes it brings about a nice feeling). I am creative -in my thoughts, in my opinions, in art and in my sense of dressing. I like the way I move and carry myself in crowd. I love watching cows-(yes, cows! wierd as it may sound but I don't mind saying it loud. For some reason I think they are a lovely creation and the most beautiful of animals I have seen. They look so pretty through my eyes.)

Life is just not about counting your inconsistencies but also knowing all the good things that we have. And that's why it was important for me to write stuff that I wrote above.

There is so much more I want to do. Life is beautiful. Each day smells good. Each days looks good. Each day reminds me of goodness. Each day speaks to me.

Yes, life is beautiful and there is so much i wanna do. I want to study further. Maybe do an MBA and also study cooking. I want to work as a chef in a hotel abroad. I want to settle in a western country (particularly because of the order and systems prevelant there). I want to travel around many places with beautiful locales. I want to adopt an asian kid (particularly chinese or a korean or a taiwanese) I want to be married with a family. I want to have a great married life. I want to own a bakery that makes lovely croissants, gateaux and muffins. All made by my own hands. I want to own a library. I want to own a book shop. I want to sit by a Christmas tree. And do so much more. These are probably just a handful of thoughts of all the things I want to do. Just like a handful of sand amidst a whole shore. But yes, I want to live this life inspite of the inconsistencies. Because it's a beautiful Life.

It indeed is a beautiful life! It feels great that I'm the chosen one. The chosen one, by none other than the GOD himself.

Yes! This life is beautiful!! I will live it as much as I can...

Pause. Stop. Think.

Posted by Mood Swings at 6:59 AM 4 comments
After a series of eye-opening incidents, I have realised it is so important to have an individualistic perspective towards life rather than agreeing to people's general opinions. Atleast it isn't really working that way with me. My opinions matter to me more than what others ask/tell me to do. To me, knowing what's inside "My world" is far too necessary. The last few days have not been quite good for me. I think I need to spend more time with myself. Figuring out a solution would just follow...

Monday, August 11, 2008

The corporate drama!!

Posted by Mood Swings at 9:50 AM 8 comments

I have spent almost a year working in an MNC or typically what they address it as "Corporate sector" in a more user-friendly term.

Ironically, till this date I have failed to understand all the mind-games people play here. Those games which are clever, uncanny and totally tactful.

It's utterly harsh how the enormously overated "corporate world" compels me to be someone that I'm not.

Why is it that I'm expected to be a "certain this and a certain that" when all I can be is what I choose to be rather than trying to be what I'm expected of by others.

Ok. If this sounds confusing, then let me make it more understandable for you.
Living in the corporate circles means talking all that is "supposedly meant" to be. Fake. Fake. Fake.

Looking at the person that I am, my general behaviour sometimes beccomes just too obvious for people. Often, I do the talk that is not "supposed" to be talked and walk the walk that's not supposed to be "walked".

Naturally, this 'typical-ME' not only makes a totally tactless soul of me but also makes my senses lack the know-hows of the tricky "corporate game play."

Everyone here talks about "networking" with eachother.

It is been proven that if you're an excellent networking bee, then half your job in climbing the corporate ladder becomes easier. Apparently, it is the networking that gets you where you want to be.Yes, a (corporate) mantra for a quicker promotion.

If you lack the social skills of "doing the talk" among the corporate circles, then you're termed as someone who's either less interesting or blamed of taming low morale at work. Face value works here!!

So what does it really take to be a gung-ho at playing corporate games?

Does it mean you gotta be well-read? or has it got to do with being diplomatic? Or is it that you just have to be something that you're not underneath?

Certainly, it takes you to wear masks of several types.

You probably also need to draw a bit of an inspiration from the habitual chameleon to master the art of changing colours or camouflage oneself in different every now and then.

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever make it to the top of ladders inspite of all the hardwork, sincereity, and efforts I have been putting into 9 hrs. of my work life.

Well, not quite.

Sources claim where there is networking , numbers hardly ever matter. The only thing that matters is the games of the mind...PERIOD.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

A Day to Remember

Posted by Mood Swings at 1:11 AM 1 comments

As I woke up this Saturday morning at about 9:00 am, I recalled it’s not one of those regular I-cant-do-much-today kind of Saturdays.

I had the whole plan afresh striking back at once in my mind that I had pre-arranged the day before Teja’s arrival to Hyderabad.

I was quiet excited about spending 2 short days with my incredibly close friend from college, Teja.

Back during our graduating days, we were a group of 4 girls in college-Jeena, Teja, Ira and me. At that time though we were closely knit, I was more close to Ira than the other two. Ira and I still are close and nothing can change that but what I’m saying is that it is quite astonishing when good times walk into your life with certain impulsiveness and that’s when all of a sudden the not-so-close people become close to you.

Note: Please wear your glasses and read on…

Re-unions to me always meant letting your hair down, dropping your inhibitions and mostly about being yourself to have some crazy, wild, whacky fun. To make the most of her stay, Teja and I set out for the day with our most mutually beloved activity-SHOPPING!

Unbelievable fact # 1 - In the last two days we’ve both splurged on shopping as if we were born to some rich dads or something. But I guess that's what best friends are all about. When one hesitates to spend that little extra money on those pair of exquisite red shoes, the other helps out in summing up the courage to go ahead and swipe your credit card without worrying too much about the expenses. And voila! Your decision on buying those exquisite red shoes becomes so easy.

And it is that very moment. That very instant, you realize that if it were not for your caring Girl- friend, you would have missed out on RED SHOES!!!!!

We met up on Friday morning. I love Friday mornings. Fridays remind me about the much awaited weekend activities (shopping especially) and all that anticipation that comes along with it.

I can't believe I took an off from work just to meet Teja. Gosh! I must have been really missing meeting some sensible people in Hyderabad. I remember I have never taken an off from work just to meet any friend, not even a good friend for that matter. But I finally did and it’s totally worth it.

We did all the possible gala wandering and lived our little “re-union”.

As I see, re-unions get better with time. The last time we met we were a little sober.

I can tell you with all the memory that I hold about my life and believe me these 2 days were the most unforgettable and remarkable days after a real long time.

We shopped. We ate out at posh places. We gossiped. We goofed around. We burst laughters. We girly-talked. We went street-hopping on the drizzling streets of Hyderabad. We splurged. And we parted eventually! Because we knew we had little alternative. We knew we had to break from all the pleasurable fun to get back to the regular routine of daily grind.

She’s leaving at 5:00 pm today. Back to Vizag. Through Vishaka Express. I want to see her off. Until the moment, my beckon fades away into plain nothingness. I will miss her having around. But we all must learn to do on our own without really missing anyone too much. Mum usually tells me that.

I shall miss you my friend. I hope we meet again soon. Until then, I will spend my time musing over our memories together.

I’m not going to forget what these 2 days have done to me. They have brought me back to being what I used to be in college- Extremely carefree and totally fun-loving.

I’m not going to forget our laughter together.

I’m not going to forget all your advices.

I’m not going to forget the way I spent away all my money and still managed a smile on my face.

I’m not going to forget the fact that this time we have come so much closer than we were ever before.

I will always love you.

Saturday, August 2, 2008


Posted by Mood Swings at 11:38 AM 2 comments

Now tell me what can ever stop a twenty-something-girl who's on her own, and is independent in most ways (even financially) and wants to be close to her other self by indulging in activities that she likes. Well, don't let your mind run too wild. I'm only talking about what most girls typically love doing- S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G!! I'm a compulsive shopper and so what! And yes, lately my hunger pangs for shopping has become almost irresistably impulsive.

Personally, when it comes to shopping I think this whole money saving thing sounds a little too over-rated to me. To be honest maybe I would address this type of a money saving frenzy-ness as a typical "Indian thing" (spare me if i sound biased) but what the heck!! People here are too caught up with "saving one's earnings" rather than just letting it go a bit easy.

Well, in my case its more like the contrast. While I do belive that saving is important, I would also emphasise that one should indulge in a bit of spulrging as well. It's such a stress buster (no exxageration) and helps you understand the importance of looking and feeling good.
When i spulrge overtly, I get to realise it only when my mum finds the bills lying in my room. As a mother she gets as typical as she can but I'm used to her "money-saving" rattling by now anyway.

Well, come to think of it, there is little defiance we can demonstrate especially with all the discounts and sale seasons splashed all over the city malls.

Fact # 1- Shopping is a way of bonding with friends!!

Last month, Teja was in town (My best freind from college). Now tell me wouldn't it be such a disgrace to not celebrate the re-union?? Like i said shopping in other words is bonding with freinds.

You should see the way she gets all charged up on our girly shopping trips. That's another reason why we get along so well

So anyway, there we met at stampede- mmmm my favourite shoe shop. To my luck they had a flat 50% off. I noticed the way those cute pair of copper tie-ups were beckoning at me soon after i made my entree into the shop. I still remember how I was smitten at the sight of tie-ups when i first saw them in catwalk. But my heart almost sank when i saw the price tag. 1700 bucks!! Heck! How am i to afford shoes so expensive. Copper tie ups!!!!!!! Wow. I love tie-ups, at almost half a price is such a bonus. I always wanted to strut around flaunting them.

Anyway, 6 months later much to my delight i finally bought these lovely pair of copper coloured roman tie-ups for a price that couldn't have ever dreamt!! Yes 400 bucks!!! What a hot deal isn't it.

I thought over many nights and days over my foolish resistance on such lovely tie-ups. And finally on one fine sale day, I find them happily gesturing at me in the most unexpected shop at the most unexpected price!! My reaction knew no bounds. Atlast I found them.

In less than a few seconds after I swiped my card at the billing counter, there it struck to me. It was as if a heavy bolt lightning which started manouevering in my braina and there I was almost enlightened. Suddenly everything started to make sense in my head. I knew it! I knew it! The fact that I'm a wise shopper!! Yes, a WISE SHOPPER.

Fact # 2- I'm a smart shopper!

Cosmoplitan says- a smart and a wise shopper always knows what she wants. A smart shopper simply wont spend her money on buying things that she won't use. Whoa! that's like me!!. Yes, its not some random co-incidental fact. It indeed is a quality that was there in me. And from this day onwards I'm nothing but a smart shopper. My purchases this sale season were all what i always wanted!!

Fact # 3- My version of "Smart shopper" (description given below)

Apart from pampering oneself by buying useful and important stuff, smart shopping to me is not always about buying stuff for oneself. An ocassional gift to freinds makes it exciting. It not only helps us save money during sales but also invests in good relations. I love buying gifts for friends. Heard the good ol saying? When you buy gifts for others, others will buy them back for you :P

It was Teja's bday last month and what better reason to shop! And besides girls love gifts especially the ones they get for birthdays. Birthday gifts make it so momentful with a dash of sentiments. So I picked for her a nice pair of coffee coloured suede croc shoes with a chic heel to it. She did looked fab in them as she walked. And ya she did adore them right there!

The sale season doesn't just end with one shop. A smart shopper will never stop her shopping right there. We call it mall hopping in other words. The sight of a well lit mall with several chic shops makes my heart beat like a zillion times a minute. The whole anticipation of buying new stuff is like an adrenaline. The best part about sale is, when you're in a mall looking at 25 different things and wanna own them sametime the chances of buying all the 25 things is more brighter. Its so wonderfully magical. It's like a child craving for 2 candies but gets 10 candies in exchange to his unexpectations.

After about 3 hours of perserverent rummagging I bought a gorgeous looking red leather shoes, an ultra-feminine pink cardigan, lovely pair of tight half pants and a pair of new dark wine Scott glares all in just half the price!! Oh i cant wait to wear them. I have a whole new wardrobe to show off now. People wont stop complimenting me. I love it when the ladies at work go all ga-ga about my dressing. They always wanna know where i buy my stuff from. I love such comments.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Mouthful of Chicken

Posted by Mood Swings at 9:59 AM 4 comments
FOOD is one of my favourite subjects of all. Give me a list of interesting ingredients and voila! I will turn it into a dish. Purely out of my imagination.

Yeah this sounds a bit too over-confident but yeah I always looooooooooooove to cook in my free time.

Most important of all the things is I loooove to experiment with chicken.

I know all the animal rights activists will be waiting at my doorstep to shoot me for saying this but yeah I believe that Chicken was created to be eaten. I dont really care if it was the egg or the chicken that came out first. I love them both anyway. All I really want to care for is some really good delecious mouthful of chicken on my plate every single day!

Chicken roast, chicken tikka, tandoori chicken, chicken fry, chicken curry, chicken rolls, chicken pizza, chicken this, chicken that and more of chicken chicken chicken!!!!! Mmmmmmm.

I did taste other bird meats like turkey, duck and 'teetar' (name of a local bird in India) but nothing tastes any better than chicken meat.

Tomorrow is Sunday. And that means it's a 'cooking day'. I'm all geared up and I know pretty much what I'm supposed to be cooking. Chicken! That's right. Yaaaaaaaaaay!! I will be cooking chicken for my parents.

I'm really excited!!!!!!!!!!

And I even know how my parents are going to react tomorrow when they will taste my new chicken recipe. They will very warmly acknowledge me for my innate talent. (No bragging but seriously). They always do that. Maybe partly because I'm their daughter but moreso because I am a really really good cook!!!

So anyway tomorrow when they are going to taste my new chicken dish they'll delightedly affirm back to me to say- "we're blessed with such a wonderful daughter coz she spends her Sundays doing nothing else but cooking chicken for us". To which I will respond back smiling at them non-challantly with all that pride over my face :P

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Latest addiction!

Posted by Mood Swings at 7:23 AM 2 comments
People often ask how a skinny girl like me can ever think about going to a gym. Most of them even consider workouts and me to be a sort of strange combination.

I mean so what if I’m skinny. Can’t skinny people dream of having good bodies? Can’t they ever dream owning a svelte figure? Sure they can. And I’m no different as compared to all the other skinny souls around. Am I? Besides 45 kilos is not really skinny (well actually come to think of it for a height like mine of 5.2”)

so anyway, the reason for me to start workouts was to look like a certain Bipasha (my workout goddess). I mean she’s got a bloody beautiful body that I could kill for!!

Imagine those chiseled muscular arms, that firm chest, those washboard abs with a slender waistline and a pair of beautifully toned muscular meaty thighs.Mmmmmmmmmmmm

I would say Bipasha's got such a designed figure just like her designer outfits.

You may say am awfully exaggerating about Bips here but I’m not lying either. You’ve gotta admit she’s ultra cool with an ultra hot body.

So coming back to the point I was saying- I always wanted a healthy, fit and toned body. And so my personal target was to add on 3 more kilos and tone up the overall.

I know I could have tried other alternatives or pigged into all those enormously caloric junk foods and meet my goal but considering I’m wise and smart (just a reminder for you all) I refused to choose the wrong option.

Before I could start workouts, I decided to do a little research to get an understanding about the different body types. And so there I went, literally crawling all over the diverse health websites on the internet trying to fish out as many incy-wincy details about an ideal body shape.

After a colossal hunt I finally realised 48 kilos would be an ideal weight for me. I could barely resist to start imagining the sight of all those heads turning back just to get an extra glimpse of my curves.

And how I long for those cheap thrills!!

Yippeee in about just a few months from now I’ll have a body I have always dreamt of...

Now here's what I must must share with you'll-

I was just 45 kilos when I first started out and now I’m 46 ½ kilos already! Thanks to banana shakes for making all the obvious difference.

It’s been 3 months now and I managed to stick to my regime. I guess they call it determination in other words. I mean 3 months, that’s like 72 days of regular workouts which also means sacrificing those divine morning snoozes!! But still, 72 days of continuous physical activity. Wow! That’s some amazing record I could create in my life of all the good things I did until now.

I'd like to make it clear that WORKOUTS AND ME ARE NOT A STRANGE COMBINATION but rather we now share a close bonding. It’s like a regular ritual and definitely a better option than my used-to-be routine of morning cuppa caffeine. I already see this happening. Yet another Bips in the making. Totally addicted and loving it same time. :)

Monday, June 30, 2008

Like a Candle in the wind...

Posted by Mood Swings at 6:34 AM 0 comments

The other day, I was contemplating for not so obvious reason about Diana, the princess of Wales.
She is to most people just a public figure, a celebrity with a starry status and I was too of the same impression about her but not until i took an insight into her "actual" life!.
I remember watching documentaries based on her life while I was still growing up. Back then I dint want to believe her super-glamorous image hyped by the media. I simply felt it was more than exaggeration.

As a young girl, the news of her sudden demise did not really jolt me unlike it did to most people around. Probably because I was still too young to realize what her loss could really mean.
It’s been more than a decade now she left this world.
Barring these ten years alone, in my recent past I felt this abrupt strange inexplicable pull that drew me towards her which got me into a sudden urge, to probe further into her life.
Personally, I would call it some sort of mental inquisitiveness. I had little control over my fingers that restlessly did a search option exercise on the internet. I seemed to have gotten very busy reading an online description ‘about her’.
I spent a while staring at her pictures where she posed in different poses in her royal long gowns and dresses. Simply elegant! Simply Class! She’s stunnigly so exuberant for the kind of rare charisma she oozed. She definitely did reflect what we call the ‘inner beauty’ too!

More often than not, to me the word ‘glamour’ always meant the outer side or the superficial side. But it was only when I went deeper into reading more about her did I realize that she was indeed very glamorous both from within and without.
Diana was someone who never shunned from her elegance even during the most turbulence of times. She fought until the end because she knew she had to fight to make her life work the best.
I wonder why she had to go through such a tough life.
Growing up in a broken family was never easy (she confessed this in one of her interviews). Bad marriage with one misunderstanding upon another and issues that ultimately led into an ugly divorce.
The truth was, she wanted her marriage to work out so badly just like any loyal and true wife. This made her role as a mother even more difficult to play. To top it all, she had to put up with the bitter slandering of the media day in and out. Even death was tough on her. An impulsive car crash!!
She never looked for sympathies from anyone. This amazes me. Sympathizing someone doesn’t make sense anyway. She always longed for love and care.
Diana bowled me as a princess because in all her actions she more than outdid a typical princess. Her charity work touched many hearts, mainly the ones who received it.
Diana is a person from whom everyone can learn some important lessons in whichever way it might apply to their lives. Getting an insight into her life makes us ponder about relationships and values.
To me personally it matters so much coz the way I look at relationships is in some ways quite common with the way Diana did. So compassionate at the way she offered her services to the depriving societies of the world. Diana to me is not just a princess or a royal heiress. She’s symbolic to elegance and poise.

Perhaps if there ever is an option to undo the damage, I would wish to see her alive today, happily married to Charles. She would have then been a wonderful wife and a caring mother too. But it can only remain as a wishful thinking, nowhere close to reality. It doesn’t take too much to recall upon and retain those myriad memories she left behind.

Elton sang it so right “she lived her life like a candle in the wind, never fading with the sunset when the rain set in…!” Indeed England’s rose that she is…
we sure do miss your presence Diana. May you rest in peace.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Fennel Seed

Posted by Mood Swings at 5:44 AM 3 comments

Fennel Seed...! That's my blog's name.

For most, this title (Fennel Seed) might sound a bit wierd for a blog. But the truth is, I was struggling really hard to come up with atleast an average name and so ended up calling it Fennel Seed. I think it works pretty fine for me. And besides, it's my favorite of all spices because it accentuates the aroma/flavour when added to a dish. I hope to put in some of my best of thoughts in here to make all you readers know what my personal stances are like... So, please go ahead and read on...

Blogging to me:

Talking about the whole idea of blogging, I have never been successful enough in "acquiring the taste" for it. Well... I did give it a try though but just could'nt resist getting back to doing my usual classic pen and diary thing. Not that am against blogging or something ( I just wouldn't be here if that was the case) but I personally think writing is more like an activity when compared to this whole virtual finger-thrusting exercise on keyboard. Sometimes I think it is such a compelling act to do (so you know the reason why I eventually gave up).

Blogging is catching up fast or maybe its already caught the hands of many. Infact it's hard to comprehend how all the writers now prefer blogging to writing. Maybe for them its a good barter because they think its a time-saver.
Albeit, I have never been a blogger ever before until now.

For me, the whole idea of staying up late at nights to write my diary with a pen is still so beautifully interesting. Writing somehow can bring about a complete sense of self-expression to the fullest. And yet blogging seems more easy, convinient and faster. Oxymoron isn't it?!!

I've had 3 unsuccesful blogs in the past and hopefully I am going to keep this one for a good long time, reason being- my late night work schedules that simply wont permit me to write anymore. The other reason is that while I'm at work, I can quickly shred my thoughts into a draft!!!
Easy, quick and convinient. Just like the taste of Fennel seeds.... :-P

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